Wednesday, December 31, 2008
New Year's Must-haves and Must-do
- Finish eight novels for the first six months.
- Design more interior renderings for portfolio.
- Put endings to unfinished proses of mine.
- MUST buy Fuji Velvia, at all cost.
- Compile furniture sketches on a sketch pad.
- Save 5000 Php until the end of the year, through my own money.
- Overhaul, if not, arrange all the mess in my room.
- Play lawn tennis again.
- Ransack more manga and drawing materials.
- Request for Dad to buy a handheld lexicon for one more time.
- Maintain Plurk regularly to attain Nirvana.
- Buy a new set of domesticated umang (hermit crab) for my cryogenic, household and academic purposes.
- Persuade mother to have the Yamaha organ be repaired.
- Go scuba diving.
- Reread the Holy Scriptures
- Work as a draftsman
- Borrow the Communication Theories book, digest its contents and absorb its thoughts.
- Buy drafting stencil and template and techpen needle.
- Attend at least one of the Cosplays frequented by Alodia (and see her ecchi-garbed would be a bonus.)
- A human hand lay-figure (if budget permits.)
Now, after some wishful thinking, I wonder how many of these will materialize. A blessed new year ahead, everyone!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Incompetent Teachers
Thursday, November 27, 2008
spam thoughts
Saturday, November 15, 2008
and here I go again
Saturday, November 8, 2008
omen
I stomped my feet repeatedly to scare the bird but it jumped and tried to flee but to no avail. However, I cannot catch the brash and elusive bird because it moved too fast. My wild-goose chase ended when I cornered it inside our powder room. I quickly closed the door and it took me half an hour to finally seize the bird. I marveled at the bird in my hand because it doesn't look like an ominous creature. It has spotted plummage, and its real color was dark brown; the lower beak is reddish while the legs have long, slender toes. After I took pictures of the pitiful bird with my cellphone, I decided to end the horseplay by securing it firmly again on my hands so for it to not go away and cause another round of mess. I freed it outside and I hurled it expecting that it would take flight, but it didn't. Instead, it landed on the ground and walked briskly going to the looming grayness of the night. I was left there, puzzled and disoriented, wondering what kind of bird it was, I do not know. I came back in the house in deep thought. Before anything else, I went over to our altar and I hurriedly lighted the candles there. Our family always do this in accordance to the rites of the day of the dead, and we never forget to dedicate prayers. Hence, I was filled with hope that the evil presence around, if any, will be warded off.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
a close encounter with the third kind
The fall made me lunged forward and my left hand hit the concrete road. The result, the concrete scraped the flesh below my knee and a little portion of skin in my palm was peeled off. And before I could get out my foot out of the waterway, the headlights of the passing cars flooded my sight. I mustered some confidence to stand firmly. Good thing is, there were no people from around to see such disgrace. The pain suddenly brought me back to my senses, and the left part of my pants was soaked. It began to smell, and I found out that the waterway is a passage for leachate! C'mon, it's leachate! I did not mind the foul smell, and I hurried to go to the nearest public toilet to wash all the dirt and grunge I have accumulated.
I was disgruntled with what had happened and I started to mentally curse those sloven Pulis Oysters or any of those who are in charge of sanitation in that place for not putting covers in the waterway. But I know in my part that the blame is on me, because I did not look to where I am walking. Again, another maladroit feat was added to my record, but this time, I have learned my lesson.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
another semester is coming.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
the way it should be
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
sleepless hours
Saturday, September 6, 2008
another missed shot
I failed.
I failed to do some things I ought to do and I let the opportunity to slip away.
Result? Another missed shot. Another debacle on the list. I thought all the way I'm gaining some points, but they are just petty, useless perks I cannot use. I thought I'm on the lead, past the other unknown forces.
and now,
she was gone.
the glaring traces were left,
but I dare not to follow.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
depresyon
Sunday, August 17, 2008
nang maging pula ang tubig sa estero de balete
Saturday, July 19, 2008
an encounter
so far, this day could be included on my own roster of happiest days of my mundane existence. i am not really used to classifying days by what had happened, but today is only peculiarly special. a short, intimate distance to the one you like, and a worthwhile, getting-to-know-each-other talk as a perk will do. i could not help but be flustered by a comely, adolescent lady a few centimeters away from me, while unknowingly sniffing copious quantity of some compatible pheromones coming from her. an internal meltdown ensued, as if my organs desisted from functioning, or the heavens did crumble into obliteration as the Earth imploded. I might fall for her for the nonce, yes, I might probably. Or did I already? her expressive eyes speak of fervent ardor and affectionate warmth I myself do not know. I am ensnared and enthralled on a superb yet delicate intricacy of nature's law- the law of attraction. yes, indeed it was, and i have the right to impute this selfish sentiment to nature, but I will never do it, and I will never be indignant and rueful for being a victim. I want to pursue the path, I want to suffer the inevitable outcomes, i want to enjoy the temporal glee of love, I want her. I like her.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
deliverance from evil
As we open our eyes to see and relish the marvels of the world, religion quickly abducted us, reared us on an absolute and compassionate world, and spared us from the wicked fangs of sinfulness and immorality. And as we grow up, we will discover that we were breastfed with black, noxious milk that rendered us as helpless and hapless creatures blinded by futile faith and folly.
Wise men and scholars proved religion’s efficiency and influence and they attached it to erudition, wisdom, infallible dogmas and creation of life. Indeed, Man was drawn on a reckless journey of religion for he was in profound desire to know the meaning of life. Apostasies, iconoclasm, erroneous doctrines and fanaticism ensued, caused nuances and raised a portion of hell to intimidate people from all walks of life. These outlandish revelations, insanity and dubious teachings were all pinpointed to highfalutin church demagogues who act as if they already met God face to face. The corollary: an influx of self-proclaimed prophets, ecstatic saints, angels and spiritualists inundated the hallowed limelight. Donning their pretentious white robes, they pretend to be as servants of truth, but in fact they are ravenous wolves starving for obscenity and authority, they are sent to mislead and to kindle chaos, confusion and discontentment.
If we try to look at it on a lighter way, religion is undeniably a result of man’s questioning nature and skepticism. He wanted to distinguish God above the rest. Man wanted to touch God’s impalpable face. Man wanted a panacea— total redemption. But still, it took him ages to discern God’s ulterior motives but to no avail.
Our valorous undertaking to unravel the arcane rationale of existence and death placed us on a vantage point where we can see everything. But our own sights were opaquely obstructed that we end up feeblish and spiritually incapacitated. Whether we like it or not, all religious precepts already impressed on our narrow minds will survive and improve, generation after generation and until everyone will question again the authenticity of life and God. Whoever said that our world would be better off without religion must be having good night sleeps.
Sad to say, we are the unsuspecting performers on a fierce role-playing game called religion, bashing and smashing each others’ heads asunder, with God as the unseen spectator applauding our self-induced lunacies on a muffled thunderclap.
Monday, June 23, 2008
reality redefined
Our constructed reality is fraught with delusions and dilemma, and we are afraid to know the real definition of the word reality because we are obliged to face the truth, to accept the bitter consequences. however, we cannot really see the bottom line for we already obscured the bright side without any intention of doing so. we are afraid to alight on our escapist's voyage, because we don't know how to resolve the troubles we left behind us. sadly, we can't realize by ourselves that dodging all the imbroglio of our actual existence won't make us any better, we forget that solving our conflicts will make us determined and polished individuals ready to face adventures, difficulties, humiliation and truth. negating the fact of reality and actuality will just make us shrivel with disgrace, and by ages we'll realize that we're making fun of ourselves, just a creature who know nothing but to turn his back away from the real world and cower in fear.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
manifestation of love
Saturday, June 14, 2008
the prodigy
Monday, June 9, 2008
a break-up story
Ano ba yan, nakakaasar! Bakit ba andaming langaw ngayon!!
Tanga ka ba? panahon kaya ng mangga!!
Eh, ano kinalaman nun sa pagdami nila? Anong sense?
Ewan ko, basta kapag maraming langaw, panahon na ng mangga!
Ah, ganun ba..Hmmm...saan nga bang probinsya yung maraming mangga?
Sa Bukidnon yun. Tanga ka talaga, yun lang, di mo alam...
Sorry ha! I'm not imperfect kasi eh!!!
Tanga, so you mean you are perfect?? Mali-mali pa grammar mo! Umayos ka nga!!!
Bakit, anung mali sa sinabi ko??
Two negatives make a positive! tanga! Parang Math din yan!
Ano?
Ewan ko sa 'yo, basta isa lang ang sigurado ko..tanga ka talaga!!
Ansakit mo namang magsalita..
Hindi kasi ako tangang tulad mo..ewan ko ba kung bakit naging tayo, ako matalino...ikaw tanga...
Bakit ba parati kang ganyan, lagi mo na lang akong inaaway. Kung ayaw mo na sa akin, edi mag-split na lang tayo.
Hoy, kung magsalita ka parang ako yung patay na patay sa 'yo dati, ha!! Sino ba yung mukhang tanga na buntot ng buntot sa akin dati, na ayaw akong tantanan at napakakulit na hingi ng hingi ng cellphone number kahit maling number naman yung binibigay ko, at sobrang obsessed sa akin pati hanggang bahay eh sinusundan ako?
Ano 'to, sumbatan?! Oh, eh sino naman dyan yung akala mo eh may Swiss Bank account sa akin na halos lahat ng gusto nyang bilhin eh binibili ko kahit maubos na ang allowance ko na pang-isang buwan? Na halos magkanda-pili-pilipit na yung katawan sa katuturo ng mga bagay na maganda sa paningin na gustong mapasakanya, at ngangalngal kapag di ko na mabili???
Eh sino naman yung tanga na nagpapatulong sa akin sa thesis work nya, sinu yung tangang yun na subject-verb agreement lang eh halos isang buwan bago nya matutunan, at sinu yung tangang yun na hindi alam ang Newton's Law of Action Reaction at Law of Diminishing Returns??
Kung magsalita ka, akala mo nag-uumapaw ka sa katalinuhan! Eh, sino naman yung tangang nahuli ng pulis na nakikipag-anuhan doon sa dati nyang boyfriend na de-sasakyan sa isang public parking?? At ikinalat pa nga sa internet yung mga pics nila, sobrang nakakahiya!!
Hoy, lalaking tanga. Bawiin mo yang mga sinasabi mo...Kung gusto mong makipaghiwalay, Ok fine! Kung sa tingin mong maghahanap pa ako ng katulad mo, pwes, you are totally mistaken! Hindi bagay ang isang tulad ko na mentally at physically fit sa isang sociopathic misfit na tulad mo!!!
Ha! Komedyante ka pala eh, ang galing mong magpatawa! At sa tingin mo naman, maghahanap rin ako ng katulad mo?? Get lost!
BLAGGG!!!!
(Isang malaking shoulder bag ang tumama sa aking mukha, at ng pag-lingon ko ay naglaho ka na...Habang pinagpipyestahan naman ng buong lugod ng mga langaw ang ulam na kanina lamang ay masaya nating pinagsasaluhan)
Sunday, June 8, 2008
random thought
Isn't it nice to know, that before you close your eyes to sleep, you'll be remembered by someone special who's wishing to be there beside you at the very moment?
Isn't it nice, that when you wake up, you have an assurance that you will still be loved by the people who care for you?
Isn't it nice to know, that even if your life is a big blunder, there's this someone who will love you still despite the things you'd done in the past?
Isn't it nice?
Saturday, June 7, 2008
philosophical ranting
We are too much addicted to the delusional drama, the illusory encounter with the unknown, even hooked to the dumbest, cheap puppet shows life could offer. Life is indomitably the cruellest detractor who is running after us on an infinite loop, always ready with confounding surprises and extemporaneous assaults. Despite our so-called trepidation and valiant odysseys, it is us who are always tricked and double-crossed because of our vulnerable disposition—we are prone to the eviscerating sentiments and passion-appealing factors of life-death cycles, symbiotic processes and the exhilarating sight of human downfall.
As we are much subjected to fatuousness and mutual haranguing, the conceptualization of a-little-less-than-perfect philosophy is insofar experiencing fragmentation due to opinionated arrogance of entities claiming for the right answer, the right path, the right way of living. If you cannot conform to the teachings of their incalculable wisdom, you will be accused of unorthodoxy and blaspheming inherited traditions or you will be labelled as a despicable heretic and will be burned at stake because of intellectual imprudence.
In reality, we all are branches of a huge, colossal tree, sharing the singularity of shallowness and acerbic wit of human distinctiveness we all are sharing the same, loathsome trunk of degraded philosophy derived from learned and unlearned men; we all are sharing the same poisonous nutrients already imbibed on our futile, capricious minds.
Friday, June 6, 2008
kitsch of the generation x
-,.:;"deEh'kwickque'braUwn'focks'jumpZz'uber'deeh'LaZzie'dawgG.. (+_^)
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
nang minsang mag-landing ang mga UFO sa earth...
May isang guro na nagtanong sa kanyang estudyante, "ano ang gusto mo paglaki mo?" , ang sagot naman ng estudyante, "Teacher po!" "Bakit?" tanong ng guro. "kasi gusto ko pong gamutin yung lola ko na may amoebiasis."
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
ang lakas mo sa globe (?)
PS. alam nio ba pwede kayong mag-unli kahit wala kayong balance na natira, o di kaya 50 cents na lang ang regular load nio? (basta may certain amount ka pa rin na gustong i-unli..e.g. 20, 40, 80) ganyan ka-buwaya ang Globe...
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
rainy day blues
The previous rain shower brought fuzz once again. Not only that it made a clamorous sound and produced a tremendous liquid amount (which I can conclude, at its degree, low areas would be left flooded on an instant.) but it also wrecked the gutter of our auxiliary kitchen. The result, a dramatic water cataract with an uncontrolled water flux. I can't help but remember last year's super-typhoon Milenyo as it unmercifully bashed and banged the G.I. roof of our draft kitchen, (or the dirty kitchen, if you wish to call it) and left other houses within a mile radius all with the same pitiable fate. Good thing, my idea of a protective canopy along the alley of our house worked as a deterrent to the onslaught of rain-showers, and the unconventional trapal we used to have was supplanted. My father said that if only I have graduated a couple of years ago, I could have designed and planned our new house because he couldn't stand some flaws on the design (which in fact is more flawed than he can see.) What I'm trying to insinuate here was the strength of houses and structures, and all the things my architect-professors inculcated on our minds is the architectural quintessence- aesthetics, purpose and strength. As I see my self practicing my chosen profession years from now, I can guarantee superiority on strength of materials as it is necessarily the rudiment of a good building, and by being reminded that oxidized gutters must be replaced.
"The House is a Machine to Live in..."
-Le Corbusier
Monday, May 5, 2008
earth hour
8:30 pm 29/03/08
I just received a forwarded message saying that everyone must have their contribution for allaying the looming crisis of our Mother Earth by turning off the lights for about an hour (8:00 to 9:00 pm). The text said that everyone must cooperate and if I care I must forward it to others. I thought it was the same, nonsense chain messages passed everyday, so I deleted it after a short musing. Well, what's wrong about turning the lights off for an hour for the sake of Mother Earth? I don't know. After I ate my dinner alone, I opened the TV and a flash report headline startled me: "Prime Cities in World Join Energy Conservation on Earth Hour." It hits home, and I felt a bothering apathy embracing me. It's as if I am stoking a great fire. The video focused on how leading cities spearhead a small event for a future vicissitude. Rampant gasoline-combustion and spendthrift use of power and energy were main causes of Global Warming. Though Kyoto Protocol was promulgated to reduce factors affecting the Global Warming, many people were still indifferent at this issue. And I'll not hesitate to count myself as one of them. As a student, I am aware on the alleged consequences of this phenomenon. Sustainable environment and planning were endorsed as an efficient alternative of living, passive cooling techniques were revived and cutting-edge discoveries about biofuels and substitutes were being debated. Along with the Earth's slow-paced degeneration, Global Warming's horrible effects serve as an eye-opener to thousands of concerned people, and many were enlightened to act wisely and save our planet just in the nick of time. Think about it. I'm not one of them, but I'll try observing first and have enough knowledge; I will act very soon, like others, to salvage our very own planet.
spywares and cheeseburger
what's with the cheeseburger?
nah, nothing =b
friendship is abstract
Sunday, May 4, 2008
the strand of hair
It was a bash, two days before the New Year’s eve, and yes, it was a celebration indeed, but done in advance, and my mother’s friends decided to do it in our house. They brought variety of victuals and viands, and started the fun with eating sessions. The smorgasbord was full of palatable dishes and I do not want to miss the chance to taste them all.
Sitting at the couch on our living room after getting my share, and reveling on the feast of taste, while swigging and salivating on a glass of soda, I turned on the TV to watch, browsing for channels that offers nonsense shows.
‘Oh my God!’ I heard one of my friend who already joined me at the opposite couch, who was a daughter of my mother’s friend, screamed while scrutinizing her plate like a gynecologist, with her fork as a scalpel and the spoon as a spatula.
‘What? What’s your problem?’ I asked instantly.
‘Look at this, on my plate!’
There she was eating a plate of adobo, embutido, and seafood Pancit Malabon, topped with crunchy, cracked chicharon, mussels, shrimps, sliced hard-boiled eggs and a copious quantity of brown garlic.
‘What? What’s in there?’
‘A hair!’
‘A hair?
‘Yes! A hair, and it’s not an ordinary hair.’
For as long as I know, a female shed off hair strands from her head more than a male and that is the reason why every meal your mother might prepared have hair strands as an extra ingredient. But I think it’s disgusting to find a hair strand when you bought the food, and you found it unclean, right?
‘Well, its alright, you probably are not alone to encounter a strand of hair in the plate you are eating.’
‘It was…It was a pubic hair!’
‘What? A cubic hair?’ I replied to her and replaced the word I heard from her that I think my mind had just only fabricated.
‘Look at my plate, a pubic hair.’
Thank goodness, I heard it right, and on what she had said, I found my self quite reluctant to take her proposition, but my curiosity is stronger that I dared look at it. On her plate, she pointed a strand of hair-it was kinky, and jet-black; it was flanked by a cartilage of a half-eaten chicken breast and a foil scrap of embutido.
‘I think it’s not. How sure are you?’
‘Yes, it was! And it’s disgusting! I want to puke out what I’ve eaten. I need an emetic!’
I think she was exaggerating it, and isn’t it too gross to find out a hair strand coming from someone’s crotch on the food you are eating?
This friend of mine, with her stomach starting to flurry, hurriedly ascended to the stairs leading to the rooftop where the celebration is happening. I didn’t follow her, and I left my meal unfinished, reckoning the possibilities that it could be what she says, or it could be not. I haven’t a clue.
She then descended as fast as she can, with another set of different meal and I asked her. ‘Did they react violently? What did they say?’
‘Curse them, they don’t believe me!’
‘Why then?’
‘They say it some kind of came from the mussels, you know, and they insist.’
‘Oh, so I see…the hair is not what you think it is.’
‘Oh, whatever! Look at the strand of hair, I don’t think it really came from a mussel meat. I know its dirty! ’
‘Okay, no one questions you here, just eat.’ I concluded her litany and increased the volume of the TV.
Now I remember. My teeth used to be meshed with those kinky hairs of cooked, stewed fresh mussels. These species of mollusks were harvested on submerged bamboo poles on the sea and they proliferate fast, I wonder how they mate.
And I really wonder how people think- how they react, how they seem so naïve and innocuous in some situations, or, are they only just showing some blatant hypocrisy or just faking it? Like those conservative and conformist parents who will put their sweaty hands on their children’s faces if they are watching a TV show or a movie, when a stimulating yet disturbing scene initiates. Like those people who make another meaning on words or even circumstances that they encounter, assuming things as double-entendre. Like those insecure cranks who are misjudging other people by their sentiments, ways of living, convictions and mannerisms.
I can’t blame them, so are our eyes- who are proven to fluctuate images they see, giving us two or possible figures that they have analyzed. Well, sometimes, my eyes dupe me, and I can be easily deceived by veneers and appearances, the outer wrapping. And I am certainly sure that the majority of world’s populace experiences the same. But effortlessly, we can avoid such things to happen. Do you know how it is done? It is simple, just dive and go explore beyond the surface.
subconscious
The coexistence of heart and mind:
Is it a preposterous presumption?
Fall like a fool, and generate philosophies
Attraction or infatuation, all leads to frustration
Learn self-pity, don’t lose grip or just let go
It all conclude on a foiled, thwarted love
Sentimental, detrimental, full of apathy
There’s never been a coexistence of heart and mind..
[0h my, the poem still sounds bitter though I am not trying to intend anything..]
Daisy
She’s no ordinary blossom,
A splendiferous creation, devoid of any unchaste elements
Sown on a barren, infertile terrain of displeased men,
Capture our eyes, poach our bestiality, and boil our bloods.
Beguile us, inveigle us on
your stamen,
your pistil,
your stigma,
deep,
deep
down
where your
sweetest nectar
lies pristine and untainted.
Let us savour your impalpable scent,
your superficial splendour,
your petals of abominable charm.
Time will come and you will wilt,
As roses wither into infernal debris.
Your ephemeral glory will expire,
The full moon will wane, and so you will...
Friday, May 2, 2008
fated to a sweet reunion
The series of inimical depressions and political publicity episodes have pillaged and bombarded the daily scenes, almost tantamount (or greater) to the tension of primetime melodramas, proving yet another decadent impression that the whole world will never forget. but I don't care, even the rice supply is running out, the prices of commodities are on a frantic rise, or the world needs to act at the eleventh hour of Mother Earth's sluggish self-destruction. I will just remain apathetic towards these things that happen almost everyday. the dramatic legislation and the government's jurisdiction is such a fatuous attempt towards national unity, and their trite spiels and thespian skills they had acquired on politics are blatant proof of their nugatory purpose. Blame-laying, finger-pointing, opinionated ideas and betrayal seemed like a horseplay the whole nation needs to be used to. Out of their vested interests, the ordinary people can do nothing but wait for the slightest change they can offer. whatever the pressing national issues our country has to face starkly, they will surely undermine the integrity and virtues our great, great ancestors and heroes had died for. Do we want these things to be seen by our posterity and the next generations? don't we want to put an end on these insufferable ordeals so that we can move on and progress? I want to act and have my contribution, but there seems to be a lot of road blocks and bottlenecks I need to pass first. I want change, but that thing just exists on my mind. There's a bunch of things I needed to do, I have priorities and involvement for a total national change seems far-fetched. There are still examinations, projects, plates and subjects I need to pass. I don't deserve another crease on my forehead because of political nuisances. just by now, I am fated to a sweet reunion with old highschool chums and bums. I missed them a lot. Damn it. |