a close encounter with the third kind

Before I went home last night, I had a very harrowing experience that I will never forget, an experience worse than seeing strange entities and apparitions of the deceased. Walking on a dimlit alley near TUP along Ayala Blvd, the traffic light going straight of the way going to Taft Avenue turned green. As I saw it, I hurried my steps so that I can cross the opposite street. With all my force, I ran fast and the green light turning yellow was the last thing I saw. An open waterway caught my left foot up to my knee.

The fall made me lunged forward and my left hand hit the concrete road. The result, the concrete scraped the flesh below my knee and a little portion of skin in my palm was peeled off. And before I could get out my foot out of the waterway, the headlights of the passing cars flooded my sight. I mustered some confidence to stand firmly. Good thing is, there were no people from around to see such disgrace. The pain suddenly brought me back to my senses, and the left part of my pants was soaked. It began to smell, and I found out that the waterway is a passage for leachate! C'mon, it's leachate! I did not mind the foul smell, and I hurried to go to the nearest public toilet to wash all the dirt and grunge I have accumulated.

I was disgruntled with what had happened and I started to mentally curse those sloven Pulis Oysters or any of those who are in charge of sanitation in that place for not putting covers in the waterway. But I know in my part that the blame is on me, because I did not look to where I am walking. Again, another maladroit feat was added to my record, but this time, I have learned my lesson.

another semester is coming.

another sem had finished, and now, I'm halfway through my college course, and I'm nearing to the culmination of my toil and stressed nights. I look forward to not having failed grades, and on this sem break, I want to do many things that I want to cram them in a short time. Is that possible? anyway, this is also a time for introspection and some soul-searching. yada yada yada.

the way it should be

I finally confirmed one thing. and that is to get out of my stagnant situation, if not perforce, I should have been still trapped on that quicksand... finally, i want to move on, now that the unseen saboteurs revealed themselves. I am now on my way to find this thing that will fill the nothingness inside me. But the question is, can I withstand the test?

sleepless hours

Today, we are currently staying at the office of Ma'am Arlene's husband in Cityland, Makati City. Hours later and we will prepare ourselves for our flight going to Bacolod City for the 5th Spectrum Seminar concerning campus journalism. We are complete here at the office, minus the nuisance queen Roma who will be conducting the info gathering of every news happening around the school. We will be all absent for three days, and this is no kind of shirking, and we all are pretty anxious missing our classes but the fun you will get not attending the tedious classes and listening to the tedious professors will be multiplied. At the minute, three computers were still being used by us, and I do know that Ma'am Arlene will get a hypertension if she would know that we are only squandering our time surfing the net rather than sleeping. Actually all the girls are already asleep now nearing to some REM, while the boys are at the peak of their stamina doing anything under the moon.

another missed shot

once again....


I failed.

I failed to do some things I ought to do and I let the opportunity to slip away.

Result? Another missed shot. Another debacle on the list. I thought all the way I'm gaining some points, but they are just petty, useless perks I cannot use. I thought I'm on the lead, past the other unknown forces.

and now,

she was gone.

the glaring traces were left,
but I dare not to follow.

depresyon

aagh....mag-isa lang ako sa bahay ngayon, mag-dadalawang araw na...nakaka-depress, sobra. wala akong makausap kung hindi ang aking sarili at ang tatlong aso namin....kung anu-ano na ang naiisip ko, at kung anu-ano na rin ang naririnig ko...may mga hindi mo mawaring tunog at kung anu-ano, at kung sa multo nga yon, wala namang may lakas ng loob magpakita. mahirap pa lang mag-isa, pero masaya din naman...tahimik ang kapaligiran at puede ka pang mag-contemplate sa mga nangyayari (yun eh kung may oras pa ako). Walang maingay, walang sumisigaw, walang nang-uutos, pag-mamayari ko ang buong bahay namin. madaming pagkain sa ref, solo ko ang computer sa buong magdamag, puede akong lumabas-masok ng bahay namin. Ngayon lang siguro ito, maya-maya lang, iingay na ulit, hindi ko na magagamit ang computer, kailangan ko nang matulog ng maaga, at mauubos na ang pagkain sa ref. medyo sayang din ang ibang oras ko kasi andami ko pang mga bagay na ginagawa na wala namang katuturan. mahirap talagang mag-isa. pero siguro bukas, hindi na...

nang maging pula ang tubig sa estero de balete

Marami ang nagulat, nagtaka at napataas ang kilay ng halos maging pula ang tubig sa estero de balete ng mga tanghali ng Huwebes ng nakaraang linggo. Sabi ng mga estudyanteng dumadaan, baka daw may menstruation yung estero, sabi naman ng ibang estudyante algal bloom daw, kaya red tide, at yung iba naman inisip na lang na siguro may kung sinong tanga na nagisip na magiging pula ba yung tubig kapag tinapunan ng pulang pintura? Ako naman, inisip ko lang na sign na yun ng doomsday. Mga kalahating minuto ang lumipas at bumagsak ang napakalakas na ulan at hindi na natuloy ang aming buong klase sa pagpunta sa Payatas- kaya ayun at wala kaming nagawa kundi maghintay na lang na tumila ang ulan. Nang mga bandang hapon na, may narinig akong estudyante na nagsabi, "Ano ba yan, kako ba i-suspend na nila yung klase,yung ibang school kaya wala nang klase." "Tanga ka ba, hindi sinususpend ng maaga ang klase dito, hinihintay pa nilang maubos yung pagkain sa canteen," sagot naman sa kanya ng kasama nya. Medyo malayo na sila kaya hindi ko na narinig ang mga sunod na sinabi nila. Medyo dumidilim na at malakas pa rin ang ulan, at hindi na makauwi ang ibang mga estudyante. May mga bali-balita na hanggang tuhod na raw ang taas ng tubig sa may Kalaw, Taft, Ayala Blvd at SM Manila, at marami nang na-stranded. Mahaba na rin daw ang pila sa LRT. Ha! Sabi ko na nga ba't malapit na ang katapusan ng mundo. Dahil walang magawa ay naisip ko na pumunta ng main library nang makasalubong ko ang isa kong kaklase. "Uy, nag-aral ka na ba? May prelim exam pa tayo bukas sa Strength of Materials," bigla nyang bungad sa akin. "Oo nga pala, ano. Sige, punta muna akong lib at mag-aaral pa ako," sumagot ako ng may halong pagka-dismaya. Habang nagpatuloy ako sa paglalakad ay hindi ko naiwasang mapabuntong-hininga. Napakagaling ko talaga at tama ang kutob ko, doomsday na nga bukas.